The silence

Hi, I'm in the middle of crisis now. Yes, yes, it's Ramadhan month - yet - i have a crisis. I've already guessed that for that one week of long silence, things are not doing well for me. And when the news just comes out, i just agreed to it - and gave my ultimatum.

and the silence prolonged. And I'm already beginning to feel crazy with the silence (eventhough i made it more difficult to break that sound). And now, i feel like begging for the sound to continue -- like it has for all these years.

But head says it's good timing. I am not blaming anybody. Im not blaming myself. The cirucumstance is just nice to give a reason. And that reason will help him -- and eventually me, to see the real light -- and not day dreaming anymore. I wasn't in reality for all these years. But whatever happened to me is now reality. And i cannot face the silence. I can't face the silence.

So im writing because i can't face the silence. Im still waiting - hoping there's sound (there's hope) for of what in reality is nothing. Hoping for a sound leads nowhere - but at least i can dream again. Without a sound, it feels empty - but it's a step for me to move on without any complications.