Rabbit.
I'm neutral this year. No Luck. No bad luck. And there's a lot of changes that i have to go through. And yes, i do feel i have to go through a lot of changes. Life, love and work.
This is the first time that I am blaming other than food for me being fat. I'm fat because i am unhappy. im miserable and depress. Depress at life, depress at work and depress at love. (where's that St John Wort again?). (do i sound like Britney Spears?) And because of that, I HAVE TO CHANGE.
I've already changed work. Hate it (or like it - so far not yet), I have to go through with it and find a way to LOVE it. Life... i'm taking control on my financials again. Love - im damn depress on this section - yet im afraid to change. Do i have time to change? Am i changing because i get cold feet? Do i want to change because THINGS are changing beyond my control? Or because he is just who he is - and im starting to see the light...
being in limbo and not knowing how to change (for a long time) what makes me depress and when im depress, what ever i eat doesn't function the way it suppose to be.
How the hell should i get TIME OUT for myself? Everyday i've got responsibility - where i don't do it so often, how to run away and get time out and re-focus? do i need to go for a "How to un-screw up your life Bootcamp?".
Like Zura said, i need to find a hobby to keep myself sane. And eating is no more a hobby for me.
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